yeah
song of the day
i really have nothing today. genuinely. i didn't make this in the morning because i had nothing. i still don't. am i a good person? do good people exist? is what i'm doing my best? am i doing the right thing? why do i bother with any of this anymore? i try and i fail. i look pathetic when i do anything, even if anything is my best. or what i believed is my best. i don't know what to do anymore. all i do is get worse. all i'll do is get worse. things don't get better for people like me. everything looks better and then it drops. i wonder if i finally disappear soon. i think i deserve it. i deserve everything that happens to me. i don't want to deal with empty reassurance anymore. i want to be gone. i want it to be over.
oh please please please please don't leave me
lying face down in a cul de sac